Update 6/8/2013

June 8th, 2013 § 14 comments

hs2Two weeks ago we had a family photo session with my friend Julia Arstorp. Julia has taken numerous series of photos of us through the years and I really wanted to have updated photos of all of us. The children have changed so much in the past two years! I will share some of them throughout the next few months. I have updated my Welcome page of the blog with a few of them too. I know some of you only read these posts by email so you can always take a peek at the home page to see what’s new.

One of the photos I love most is this black and white one with our new dog Lucy, a Pembroke Welsh Corgi that we got in January. If you follow me on Twitter you know how much I love her. She is my first dog ever… the kids always wanted a dog but I wasn’t sure about the commitment. Clarke had a great Corgi named Pearl when we met so I knew the breed and loved their personalities. Lucy is two now and she has brought such joy to our lives.

IMG_5457Most people who know me are shocked I not only let Lucy on the bed and throughout the house. My attitude is she is a part of our family so she gets to share. She’s not a big snuggler (prefers to lay next to you or under the bed) but we have had some great naps together over the past few months. She is great at fetch which is a lot of fun to watch as her little legs run so fast and her big ears get pinned back to her head as she scurries… she is fast on those little legs!

The end of the year is very busy now with school ending for all of the kids. Colin will graduate from elementary school and start at the middle school in 6th grade in the fall. Tristan will be going into second grade and Paige will be a high school sophomore (eek!). Right now we have baseball playoffs, karate belt testing, and some upcoming visits from family.

I’ve been managing the side effects from the new Aromasin/Afinitor regimen pretty well. Right now I’m still on 7.5 mg of Afinitor a day, my biggest problems from the drug combo are severe muscle and joint pain, thyroiditis (I also have Hashimoto’s Disease), loss of appetite with weight loss, and migraines. The mouth sores and head irritation have improved.

Bloodwork yesterday showed a drop in my tumor markers, an indication that it is still working now after about 2 months. This gives me a two week reprieve in worry. I really do live in two week increments right now. I’ve been able to do all of the things I need to do and most of the things I want to do. I am learning more and more the difference between these two things.

IMG_5910I’ve attended every single one of Colin’s baseball games. I got all three of them to the dentist for checkups and their regular doctors’ appointments. I keep a regular schedule right now but try to rest more on weekends when I can. I am glad for the normalcy that my days mean to them and to me. We all know it’s not truly normal, of course, but the comfort of routine is real, especially to them. I find it hard to believe the last 8 months have been since my diagnosis of metastatic breast cancer.

I gave an interview to the Daily Beast this week about Komen’s cancellation of many of their walks this year because of drops in funding despite Nancy Brinker giving herself a pay raise to $685,000 a year. I wish the piece had gone into more depth about the lack of funding for metastatic research, but I still think some good points were used from the interview. You can read it here.

If you are looking for a place to donate money for breast cancer research, I do have a donation page at Sloan-Kettering which funnels money to metastatic breast cancer research. You can see the page here. It has raised about $17,000 since last fall.

I hope you all have a good weekend.

Find  a bit of joy in the world. Share it. If you can’t find it, create it…

 

The still of the evening

April 9th, 2013 § 30 comments

IMG_3323In the still of the evening I hear the frogs waking up to Spring.
I hear the creak of the floor as my daughter walks around her room,
Sets things just so,
Murmurs to our dog.

In the still of the evening I hear a car,
A train,
A neighbor calling his own dog home for the night.

In the still of the evening my mind wanders again.
Back.
Always back.

I finished my 13th round of chemo 48 hours ago.
I wonder what is going on inside my body.
I wish I could see.
I wish I knew.

Is it working?
Is this round the one that will show evidence of chemo failure?
Will I move on to a new treatment?
One step closer to the end?

Every time I bang against something,
Every time I feel a twinge,
Every time that fractured bone aches,
I pause.

The pauses add up to moments.
The moments add up to minutes.

I reel them back in like fishing line, I show them who’s boss.

Just listen, I say.
Listen to the frogs. The creaks. The murmuring. The train.

Just listen.
Just hear the quiet,
Hear the house going to sleep for the night.
Feel the love.
Be grateful you can.

Our new family member and today’s Doctor Radio interview

January 23rd, 2013 § 11 comments

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First order of business is a late reminder that today (Wednesday) I will be on Doctor Radio on SiriusXM 81 from 1:00-1:30 EST on the Oncology show.

I’ll be talking about my first diagnosis of stage II cancer and then my recent diagnosis of stage IV metastatic cancer, my blog, and how to improve the doctor-patient relationship. You can call 877-NYU-DOCS if you want to ask questions! We will be live for that time period. You can even email questions in during that time (or even before, just send them to docs@siriusxm.com and say it’s for me on today’s oncology show). The half hour will go fast I’m sure. The taped show will then repeat tonight at 11 pm. I think you can go here to listen for free for a week if you want to listen in today: http://www.siriusxm.com/freetrial

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I had intended to be posting each day this month but this weekend caught up with me. In the negative column, side effects from chemo this weekend were worse than usual. The nausea was the most debilitating one. Two out of the three weekend days were pretty much lost. As a result I could not get posts up. I am sorry about that.

However, these negatives were overshadowed a million times over by the other reason I was too busy to be writing. The photos you see are of the new addition to our family. Lucy is a two year old Pembroke Welsh Corgi that came to live with us on Sunday. She is a sweet and loving dog, and has made the adjustment to her new home seamlessly. My children (14, 11, 6) have fallen head over heels in love. Paige knew we were getting her but the boys were unaware… I loved having a surprise for them. I’ll write more about that soon.

We thank Gaye and John Georges at Calista Corgis for raising this beautiful dog who is a treasured part of our home now.

I’ll include a few photos and then be back this week finish out my month of revisiting some of the most-requested old posts. Yesterday I was at Sloan Kettering talking about side effects, PET scans, and tumor markers. As always, my doctors are very thorough and I always leave with more information about options and perspective. I was also able to share with Dr. Dang that with your generosity we’ve raised over $15,000 in 3 weeks for metastatic breast cancer research on my Sloan Kettering Giving page. 

Thanks to all for your support this week.


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