This post was written at a time when I was feeling down, fatigued, weary. I started thinking of all of the things that I was looking forward to when I felt better, things I hoped for the future, things I was thankful for along the way. These would be my payments; these were things that I accepted for my struggle.
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A currency of thanks,
a commodity of gratitude,
a medium of memories.
Hugs
smiles
laughs
tickles
sunny days
warm laundry
long baths
newly-mown grass
freshly-baked cookies
hot coffee
baby snuggles
happy endings
clean floors
baby shampoo
good blood counts
clear scans
easy blood draws
short waiting room waits
no side effects
no hidden costs
generous co-pays
quiet offices
pain-free mornings
guiltless decisions
days without regrets
unconditional love
fading scars
new friends
caring surgeons
information
honesty
openness
truth
validation
appreciation
understanding
sympathy
hope
research
progress
empty parking spaces.
someday, my hope:
no more cancer.
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This post went right to the Gratitude section of my heart (? – say what??) — seriously, I can FEEL this post making my heart bigger! Thank you!!!
Thanks for posting this. It resonates so deeply with me.
This brought tears to my eyes. Everything in your list from hugs to good blood counts to fading scars. All things that can and are taken for granted at times. A beautiful post.
I also read your post and the NYT article about a fighting spirit and can understand and appreciate that remaining positive can’t cure cancer or other ills but I do find if I try to have some fun and laugh in between dealing with this disease, it helps me get through the day in one piece.
There is one thing I would add to your list and that would be a nice, cold glass of water with no aftertaste. Counting the days until I can enjoy one again.